Federico Faggins' experience of unconditional love

I watched a video of Frederico Faggin.

He talked about experiencing this unconditional love.

He was in bed, thinking about consciousness.

When this bright burst of light came from him,

from his chest with a loud sound.

This light becomes sparkling particles of light.

These sparkling particles of light were him.

You have to watch him to experience the awe of that moment.

When he experienced the immensity of unconditional love.

I wondered how it feels to experience that love.

I thought about it.

My mind dwelled on it.



Early hours of morning, at meditation.

I reached out to a loved one

when my inner self asked,

Have you asked yourself if you have really forgiven her?

I thought I had but I had been separating my heart, my soul from her.

In that moment I experienced it, that love.

It cleared everything away.

It encompassed her.

It embraced her in that sparkling light of love.

Everything faded away.

There was only that sparkling white glittering lights of love.

Federico Faggin came to my mind.

I knew I was experiencing that love.

I stayed with that love.

Relishing the magic of it.

This Divine unconditional love.

The observer becomes the observed

The observer becomes the observed.

One day, I understood what it meant.

I was deep into trance meditation.

Engaged with the nothingness

Which is God.

And then I ceased to be.

There was only the nothingness.

I had merged into the nothingness.

One with the nothingness.

There was no longer any separation.

No longer any duality.

I the observer, observing God in the nothingness,

Had become the observed, God.

Merging into the infinity, God.

Power of God in us

God, having a human experience through us.

What does that denote?

That we are players on the stage of this world.

Like actors enacting, acting a part on stage.

This makes it so, we live fully,

Even as a part of us disengages from it.



Mystics, saints who experience this truth would ask,

Why are you so caught up in this world,

that is here today and tomorrow it might not be.

They could not understand how we could be so engaged with this world,

an illusion to them.



Disengaging gives us power.

When we are detached.

When we are not as enmeshed in ourselves and this material world.

That is freedom and power.



This power saints and sages possess.

Malign them and they remain unmoved.

For they exist on a higher level.

And material things or physical things no longer have a pull on them.



Viewing our existence as being players on the stage of this world.

Enable us to hold a bird's eye view on our lives.

With broader vistas.

It helps us disengage and not live so fully embroiled

with the material world.

And this lessens suffering for us.

For a truth, attachment to the ego,

to the material world is what brings us a lot of suffering.

Divine Spark

God, having a human experience through us.

A powerful imagery.

That this myriad of us are all God experiencing existence through us.

For infinite is not able to experience itself, himself.

To experience itself, himself, Infinity has to split itself into

this immense creation of his.

It means the plants are no less than us.

The animals are no less than us.

They possess the same divine spark that we possess.

What Spinoza said as God, nature.

God is nature, nature is God.

In the Ra Material: The law of one have us move from first density

to the seventh density.

At the eighth density, we merge back into the Divine.

First density is inanimate.

Second density is trees, animals.

Third density is us.

We are moving toward fourth density.

Fifth density, we are higher beings.

Sixth density, we are light beings and no longer have physical bodies.

Seventh density, we are close to merging back into Infinity.

Eight densities merged back into the Infinite Creator.

In that context, it is plausible there is no hell.

Since we are all God experiencing existence.

And we all merge back into God, Infinity one day.

There is no hell for eternity.

That hell on earth and over the other side is our own making.

We are the creator of our being.

It was not an easy journey.

This, of arriving at we are god.

There is a vast difference between the meaning of

God is within us and God is us.

God is within us, he could still be that separate being,

Who created us outside of himself and dwells in us.

God is us, has a totally different meaning.

I struggled with it.

I went back and forth.

I mitigated the meaning of God is us.

Going through videos of philosophers and physicists.

One day one of the images in those videos hit home.

The image of God splintering into us,

And with forgetfulness, experience this and other existences.

It was the same image I had when I first learned of creation,

from the book, Ra Material, the Law of One.

Striving to understand it, I saw God as a mirror,

shattering into fragments while remaining whole.

And the fragments are us.

Why did it matter so much to me that I struggled with it?

Because deep inside I know what is the truth.

The truth resonated with me, we are god.

Encounter with Jesus

  It has always been the godhead for me. 

Jesus did not play a big part in my spiritual path.

Recently, feeling like the lost sheep in the gospel.

And learning more about Jesus.

His lost years in the Far East.

His time spent with holy monks in Tibet,

India and the then Persia.

Feeling closer to him,

I started turning to him.

But with the old slavish submissive form of worship,

I was accustomed to from my Catholic background.

I felt Jesus blocking that in me.

He told me, "You have the god in you.

You have that power. Use it."

It was as real to me as experiencing his presence.

It came to me, he is so right.

The Jesus of the Gospel never taught us such submission.

He came to teach us to awaken to the God in us.

Hence to the power inherent in us.

"The kingdom of God is within you."

Monad

What is monad? Monad is a Greek term for unity.

Think in terms of Ultimate Reality, Source, the Brahman of Indian mystics, singularity of Spinoza, fundamental base of Max Planck.

It is the Infinite One, from which stems creation.

It is the primordial force, it was before time began. Before creation.

It is what I call God, the supreme being, Infinite Creator.

It is the Source I, we, creation come from.

God, Source, Oneness

Think on this:

God splits himself, itself into us.

Billions, trillions of us.

From that Oneness, that Source.

We are essentially god, with forgetfulness.

Having a human experience.

We are all from the One.

We are the Oneness.



This means, the person who makes our blood boil is God.

From that oneness.

The person who makes us suffer,

Who makes life miserable for us is God.

We are that Oneness, God.

How I operate from my god self

To arrive at operating from my real self or god self.

I have to first recognise my real self coming in.

I did it by applying the self-inquiry exercise of Ramana Maharshi.

All you do is keep asking the question, who am I? who am I?

All the while clearing everything from the mind.

Going into inner silence.'And waiting for your real self to come through.

In my case, as I kept asking that question.

All the while looking at my ego self,

Isolating my ego self from everything else.

The ego self fade away, my real self emerged and took over.

I literally saw it happening like an inner vision.

After that, it was easy to call in my real self or god self.

And operate from my real self or god self.

Our real selves are divine.

It is the spirit self.

We have the soul self, and spirit self.

This spirit self is how we were when we first came into being.

Spirit, divine, without this material body.

It is when intrigued by matter,

We moved into experiencing how it is to be matter.

This spirit self is pure, transparent.

Free from human emotions of hate, jealousy and the like.

When we experience it pure form like Jesus, Buddha, Ramana Maharshi,

Then we are in the Divine, twenty seven.

For me, I move in and out of it.

Attending to my life on planet earth.

The power inherent lies in freedom from the ego self.

All ills come from the ego self.

The need to excel, engage in competition, bringing in jealousy.

The need to possess, triggering greed and covertousness.

I could go on and on.

Ego is what cause us to suffer.

Slighted, we suffer.

When we are more free from the ego.

We could ask ourselves, does it matter someone deem us less?

No, and we move pass it.

With the ego, we would get rile, unhappy, resentful.

Those negative feelings trigger actions that could often be detrimental to us.

Above all, the power lies in peace, happiness and joy.

Our real self possesses the intrinsic nature of joy.

You feel the joy bubbling from nowhere.

For no rhyme or reason.

It is sheer joy, happy to be alive and experiencing life.

Even when life delivers its knocks of misfortunes or illnesses.

The spirit self is able to take it in easier strides.

With that same spirit of inner calm and equanimity of spirit.

For it has traversed human nature, the human ego.

Seeing through it, through its illusions to the real Self.

The spirit self, the god self that we are.

Monad

Videos on Monad started surfacing for me.

I ignored it, forgetting the fact I asked my spirit team to push videos to me.

Finally, I watched a video, intrigued by the name.

And what a discovery.

Monad is the primordial source.

The unified force that brought about creation.

It is the single cell, the fundamental ground from which creation stem from.

This on our creation came to me when I was walking my dogs.

We are akin to a drop of the ocean, which is the Infinite Creator.

Does that make us any less than God?

A cake, cut a tiny fraction out, is still a cake.

You cannot say, it is not a cake.

A cake is big, this is just a little piece.

A cake can contain so much, a little piece is not able to hold anything.

On that premise,

How do I perceive operating from my God self?

When I arrived at calling in my real self, using the self Inquiry of Ramana Maharshi.

First thing I notice is the peace.

I know I have called in my real self, from that feeling of peace.

After that, the fact the real self is devoid of negative elements like hate.

The real self, or god self is pure.

It is us in pure spirit.

It has peace, joy, love, light and all the good elements.

It does not possess human emotions like hate, jealosy or the like.

The rewarding moment came one day when I look inside of me.

And found I am incapable of feeling hate.

Not only that, it is as though I do not understand the meaning of the word hate.

I had to look it up on google.

What is the chance that this real self is parallel self on another level?

Intriguing thought.

Healing Breaths

The first time that breathing caught my attention was at a meditation.

It was a meditation like usual.

I was entering deeper and deeper into meditation.

When I heard it, audible sounds of my breathing.

It is the breathing of one falling asleep.

I found myself moving into deep trance meditation.

After that, breathing becomes a clue to states of meditation.



When I breathe that way,

I know the meditative state is on me.

Something close to samadhi.

Where I go so deep, I astral travel to higher realms.

Sometimes, I am hardly conscious of breath.

And almost stop breathing.



"Stop breathing and you are dead," was a response to me.

But no, Buddhist monks and Indian mystics are known to stop breathing.

There is a story about Paramahansa Yogananda.

A disciple wanted to witness his ability to stop breathing.

He asked Yogananda about it.

Sportingly, Yogananda obliged by demonstrating it.

He lay down on the couch and after a while, stopped breathing.

Five minutes into it and his disciples panicked.

And asked him to come back to life.

They did not want a dead body on their hands.



Most of the time my breaths are slow and deep.

When I get sick however, it is different.

Panicked hard breathing, my body in disarray.

Fighting the sickness.

It is then I apply healing breaths, focusing on my breaths.

Natural slow breathing to calm my body down.

Part of that calming down helps with the healing.



The few times I applied such healing breaths,

I knew the exact moment when the worst of the illness was over.

I just know it.

My body knows it.

However, it was never a complete instant healing.

If it were that, I might jump up and down, proclaiming, "It's a miracle. "

That is the norm of healing for me.

The worst would be over.

And gradually, over the period of twenty hours,

I heal fully and get back to normal.

We are gods, incredible truth

I have heard the term thrown around, we are gods.

And ignored it.

Just one of those New Age stuff.

It was when I engaged in the self inquiry of Ramana Maharshi,

that I began to look at it seriously.

The first issue was very unsettling for me.

If we are gods, 

then you are removing God from me.

The God I turn to in my life.

I look inside of me.

I still see the same God inside of me.

I decided as long as I believe in a personal God.

I will stay with that.

Then I started watching videos of physicists and philosophers.

Max Planck with God as the foundational base from which all things stem.

Spinoza with his god of singularity, the source from whence all things come from.

And now, the term monad.

They all point to the same, say the same.

God is this original singular source from which all things derive their being.

With the self inquiry of Ramana Maharshi,

My real self became real to me.

My real self is the Divine Self.

For mystics also, there is no separation, no duality.

There is only that One, and we are with the One.

We are that Oneness.

Someone was trying to formulate what God is,

Ramana Maharshi responded, "Just say, you are god and be done with it."

The Oneness helps me accept this truth or fact.

I never did have the experiences of those Indian mystics.

Who could tell what God is and what God is not.

Nisargadatta Maharaj, without much education,

Could go into depths, speaking that language of mystics,

Hard to comprehend.

I have however experienced God and God in everything.

I was standing there in nature one day.

When I felt the presence of God in everything.

"For a truth, God is the God of the Universe," I exclaimed.

That became his name for me.

This oneness helps me today in accepting the fact we are gods.

We come from God.

God did not create us outside of himself.

Like a potter his pots of clay.

He created us by expanding himself into creation.

Splintering into this billions or trillions of Creation.

Where we all came into being.

Beings like him, with his attributes.

We then move into matter.

Being here on earth is part of that.

I look inside of me and I see God.

I look outside, above, below me and I see God.

I look at the Universe within me and I see God.

That is another mystery.

How can I view the Universe inside of me?

This small physical body of mine?

"You are thinking in terms of the physical body,"

spirits told me, "Think in terms of spirit, you are spirit."

We are bigger than the physical body.

We, spirit, contain the physical body.

The physical body does not contain our spirit.

All these led me to accepting and believing.

We are gods.

Gods having a human experience through the billions, trillions of us.

Not only us, but through the inanimate things, trees, animals, beings.

Explore all that, it is fascinating.

God, creation

For months I struggled with the phrase, "you are gods."

How can we be gods?

When I came across a video which says,

No, we are not gods.

God is immense, he contains the entire universe.

We are not that immense.

We cannot contain the entire universe in us.

We are particles of God.

That resonnated with me.

And I gladly accepted that.



A week ago, I was watching another video.

and it all came together for me.



God is this singular unit.

This immensity.

According to the Law of One book,

It becomes aware and wants to experience itself.

Since it is Infinite, it is not able to do so.

Hence he splits himself into creation.

And we are fragments of that creation.

Hence no, we are not drops from the ocean, God.

We are god, complete with his essence and being.

We are god experiencing this human existence.

With the veil of forgetfulness.

All of creation has this same Divine Spark in us.


Later, I came across another video on saints and sages.

Who have completely awakened to their spirit self.

And live immersed in it.

Even as they operate on earthly planes.

I want to do the same.

Operate as far as possible from my real self, or divine self.

Whilst living and operating on planet earth.

Vision

There is a form of seeing which is vision.

I do not see angels or spirit guides.

But forms and aspects.

For instance, on the "tightness" I just shared.

It is like a fast flash.

Such visions are very hard to put into words.

Or capture it into perspective.

I know what it means, what it says.

To describe it is something else.

Tightness

This morning,  spirit taught me something again.

Tightness, a form of concentrated form.

If you look at saints, sages or anyone who is very evolved.

You would notice this aspect.

No frills, fads. 

Things just are.

They go to the core, the root of matter.

And do not waste time on things not real or concrete.

Dispensing with everything else.

I was going into something mentally.

When spirit stopped me.

Stay on track, stay on message.

Practicing it in real life.

We live as we live.

Without the need to explain our actions to anyone.

Explaining means we are influence by their perception of us.

Not walking our own true path.

My own person

I looked back through the years.

And looked to see something that stood up in me.

It is that I could not be contained or boxed.

I had thought it was because I grew up with little parental care.

Growing up like a wild rose or plant.

Today, I wonder about that.

Because I look mild, easy going.

Most people underestimate me.

And thought me easy to influence, manipulate or control.

But I am slippery as an eel.

I beat to my own drumbeat.

I could not be contained or boxed in.

A form of native independant.

Similar to native intelligence.

Today, as I stand at the pinnacle of my spiritual life.

Knowing I have triumphed over most obstacles of my life.

Arriving at where I am now.

I realize I had always been my own person.

The world might try to hem me in.

I might have thought little of myself.

Minimizing myself.

But I have always remained me.

That was the gift of nature to me.

God nature, nature God.

Spinoza's God.

Bliss

I love this bliss.

It is like riding on a tidal wave.

It is like flying, a kite on wings of air.

My soul is never more light.

Never more buoyant.

Rejoice with me, I want to cry to the world.

When you reach the pinnacle of spirituality.

That is where bliss is.

When you have attained God.

That is where bliss is.

When you have attained to your pure spirit self.

That is where bliss is.

Unadulterated and free.

Love on the spiritual path

I watched a video yesterday on a priest who saved thousands.

And a Nazi who sought by all means to eliminate him.

End of the war, the Nazi was captured, imprisoned for life.

The priest visited him once a month for ten years.

The Nazi, completely resistant became a Catholic.

Asked how he could visit a man who sought to kill him 

and kill many of his friends.

The priest answered, he is a lost soul.

The words lost soul resonate with me.

There was a time I experienced strong emotion towards a political leader.

I could not watch him.

Today, I am able to feel compassion for him.

Or watch another in hateful tirade.

The words of hate he spewed.

He looked ugly.

Towards him too I am able to feel compassion.

Think of what a miserable life he must be having.

Living with such hate in his soul.

It is akin to a soul stepped in darkness.

Tied up in chains of hate inside.

Yes, they need our compassion and love.

It is hard imagining sending love to such a hateful individual.

But that is what we are.

Beings of love and light.

Healing sessions

 I woke up at three thirty, early in the morning.

And went into meditation.

It came to me again, my last two bouts of sickness were strange.

Both happened the same way.

One moment I was perfectly fine.

Next,  I got very sick.

The last one was a bad vertigo.

This last one was indigestion or food poisoning.

It was as though spirit was using sicknesses to drive home a message to me.

But what?

I asked my spirit team what the message is.



And then I remember the crystal ball which I kept dropping and healed it each time.

A channeler told me that, my spirit guide, Tipka said unless I acknowledged my healing abilities.

He will keep getting me to drop the crystal ball.

I dropped it four times.

The last time I dropped it, the crystal ball bounced a few times on the cement floor like a ball.

And cracked in four places inside.

I healed all the cracks within hours.

Leaving a tiny mark, the size of the tip of a pin.

Months later I told my spirit guide to heal it since he caused the crystal ball to drop.

One day, on checking it, I noticed it was gone.

I put an end to that by keeping my crystal ball in a safe place.



This makes me wonder,

Could my spirit guide be using my body to drive the message home,

reminding me to acknowledge the fact I am a healer?

I became very sick each time.

Yet my body was able to heal on its own.

And I did not need medical care.

The third time it happens, it might not be so kind.



Spirit tells us, we have freewill.

We do not have to do it.

But when they want us to do something.

Until we listen and do it.

They will keep nudging us.

That is quite commonplace knowledge.



I am hearing them.

I will start doing live sessions of healing.

Ten minutes of energy healing.

Followed by twenty minutes of meditation.

Meditation being the best means of healing for me.

A dream of two women who were sick

I dreamed I was going to Church and joined a function after.

I arrived, and came upon a woman named Mary.

She was crying inconsolably, "My teeth hurt so terribly, 

I have no means to get it seen to."

She asked for a cup of coffee.

I went to get it.

The man at the counter got very riled on hearing about it.

And called the Red Cross.

As he was talking on his phone,

His assistant, who was bringing the coffee, fell into a faint.

People tried to help her by pulling her along the road.

Dirt, muddy water was getting on her face, and eyes.

She turned over till she was on her belly and moved that way.

I hurried to Walkers doctor clinic.

Even as I entered the clinic, I knew it was futile.

I was there before, waited the whole day and never got seen.

Now I have two sick people on my hands.

And I know they would not get seen too.

What if I try healing Mary myself?

I asked.

What if she heals?

People would know I am able to heal and come to me.

Pride would set in.

And that would be bad.

I woke up.

The above was a real life fear.

For that reason, for the past nine months.

I have been training myself to stay in some form of obscurity.

While training myself to be so steeped in God.

Like saints and sages, only God and God alone would matter.