Federico Faggins' experience of unconditional love

I watched a video of Frederico Faggin.

He talked about experiencing this unconditional love.

He was in bed, thinking about consciousness.

When this bright burst of light came from him,

from his chest with a loud sound.

This light becomes sparkling particles of light.

These sparkling particles of light were him.

You have to watch him to experience the awe of that moment.

When he experienced the immensity of unconditional love.

I wondered how it feels to experience that love.

I thought about it.

My mind dwelled on it.



Early hours of morning, at meditation.

I reached out to a loved one

when my inner self asked,

Have you asked yourself if you have really forgiven her?

I thought I had but I had been separating my heart, my soul from her.

In that moment I experienced it, that love.

It cleared everything away.

It encompassed her.

It embraced her in that sparkling light of love.

Everything faded away.

There was only that sparkling white glittering lights of love.

Federico Faggin came to my mind.

I knew I was experiencing that love.

I stayed with that love.

Relishing the magic of it.

This Divine unconditional love.

The observer becomes the observed

The observer becomes the observed.

One day, I understood what it meant.

I was deep into trance meditation.

Engaged with the nothingness

Which is God.

And then I ceased to be.

There was only the nothingness.

I had merged into the nothingness.

One with the nothingness.

There was no longer any separation.

No longer any duality.

I the observer, observing God in the nothingness,

Had become the observed, God.

Merging into the infinity, God.

Power of God in us

God, having a human experience through us.

What does that denote?

That we are players on the stage of this world.

Like actors enacting, acting a part on stage.

This makes it so, we live fully,

Even as a part of us disengages from it.



Mystics, saints who experience this truth would ask,

Why are you so caught up in this world,

that is here today and tomorrow it might not be.

They could not understand how we could be so engaged with this world,

an illusion to them.



Disengaging gives us power.

When we are detached.

When we are not as enmeshed in ourselves and this material world.

That is freedom and power.



This power saints and sages possess.

Malign them and they remain unmoved.

For they exist on a higher level.

And material things or physical things no longer have a pull on them.



Viewing our existence as being players on the stage of this world.

Enable us to hold a bird's eye view on our lives.

With broader vistas.

It helps us disengage and not live so fully embroiled

with the material world.

And this lessens suffering for us.

For a truth, attachment to the ego,

to the material world is what brings us a lot of suffering.

Divine Spark

God, having a human experience through us.

A powerful imagery.

That this myriad of us are all God experiencing existence through us.

For infinite is not able to experience itself, himself.

To experience itself, himself, Infinity has to split itself into

this immense creation of his.

It means the plants are no less than us.

The animals are no less than us.

They possess the same divine spark that we possess.

What Spinoza said as God, nature.

God is nature, nature is God.

In the Ra Material: The law of one have us move from first density

to the seventh density.

At the eighth density, we merge back into the Divine.

First density is inanimate.

Second density is trees, animals.

Third density is us.

We are moving toward fourth density.

Fifth density, we are higher beings.

Sixth density, we are light beings and no longer have physical bodies.

Seventh density, we are close to merging back into Infinity.

Eight densities merged back into the Infinite Creator.

In that context, it is plausible there is no hell.

Since we are all God experiencing existence.

And we all merge back into God, Infinity one day.

There is no hell for eternity.

That hell on earth and over the other side is our own making.

We are the creator of our being.

It was not an easy journey.

This, of arriving at we are god.

There is a vast difference between the meaning of

God is within us and God is us.

God is within us, he could still be that separate being,

Who created us outside of himself and dwells in us.

God is us, has a totally different meaning.

I struggled with it.

I went back and forth.

I mitigated the meaning of God is us.

Going through videos of philosophers and physicists.

One day one of the images in those videos hit home.

The image of God splintering into us,

And with forgetfulness, experience this and other existences.

It was the same image I had when I first learned of creation,

from the book, Ra Material, the Law of One.

Striving to understand it, I saw God as a mirror,

shattering into fragments while remaining whole.

And the fragments are us.

Why did it matter so much to me that I struggled with it?

Because deep inside I know what is the truth.

The truth resonated with me, we are god.

Encounter with Jesus

  It has always been the godhead for me. 

Jesus did not play a big part in my spiritual path.

Recently, feeling like the lost sheep in the gospel.

And learning more about Jesus.

His lost years in the Far East.

His time spent with holy monks in Tibet,

India and the then Persia.

Feeling closer to him,

I started turning to him.

But with the old slavish submissive form of worship,

I was accustomed to from my Catholic background.

I felt Jesus blocking that in me.

He told me, "You have the god in you.

You have that power. Use it."

It was as real to me as experiencing his presence.

It came to me, he is so right.

The Jesus of the Gospel never taught us such submission.

He came to teach us to awaken to the God in us.

Hence to the power inherent in us.

"The kingdom of God is within you."

Monad

What is monad? Monad is a Greek term for unity.

Think in terms of Ultimate Reality, Source, the Brahman of Indian mystics, singularity of Spinoza, fundamental base of Max Planck.

It is the Infinite One, from which stems creation.

It is the primordial force, it was before time began. Before creation.

It is what I call God, the supreme being, Infinite Creator.

It is the Source I, we, creation come from.

God, Source, Oneness

Think on this:

God splits himself, itself into us.

Billions, trillions of us.

From that Oneness, that Source.

We are essentially god, with forgetfulness.

Having a human experience.

We are all from the One.

We are the Oneness.



This means, the person who makes our blood boil is God.

From that oneness.

The person who makes us suffer,

Who makes life miserable for us is God.

We are that Oneness, God.

How I operate from my god self

To arrive at operating from my real self or god self.

I have to first recognise my real self coming in.

I did it by applying the self-inquiry exercise of Ramana Maharshi.

All you do is keep asking the question, who am I? who am I?

All the while clearing everything from the mind.

Going into inner silence.'And waiting for your real self to come through.

In my case, as I kept asking that question.

All the while looking at my ego self,

Isolating my ego self from everything else.

The ego self fade away, my real self emerged and took over.

I literally saw it happening like an inner vision.

After that, it was easy to call in my real self or god self.

And operate from my real self or god self.

Our real selves are divine.

It is the spirit self.

We have the soul self, and spirit self.

This spirit self is how we were when we first came into being.

Spirit, divine, without this material body.

It is when intrigued by matter,

We moved into experiencing how it is to be matter.

This spirit self is pure, transparent.

Free from human emotions of hate, jealousy and the like.

When we experience it pure form like Jesus, Buddha, Ramana Maharshi,

Then we are in the Divine, twenty seven.

For me, I move in and out of it.

Attending to my life on planet earth.

The power inherent lies in freedom from the ego self.

All ills come from the ego self.

The need to excel, engage in competition, bringing in jealousy.

The need to possess, triggering greed and covertousness.

I could go on and on.

Ego is what cause us to suffer.

Slighted, we suffer.

When we are more free from the ego.

We could ask ourselves, does it matter someone deem us less?

No, and we move pass it.

With the ego, we would get rile, unhappy, resentful.

Those negative feelings trigger actions that could often be detrimental to us.

Above all, the power lies in peace, happiness and joy.

Our real self possesses the intrinsic nature of joy.

You feel the joy bubbling from nowhere.

For no rhyme or reason.

It is sheer joy, happy to be alive and experiencing life.

Even when life delivers its knocks of misfortunes or illnesses.

The spirit self is able to take it in easier strides.

With that same spirit of inner calm and equanimity of spirit.

For it has traversed human nature, the human ego.

Seeing through it, through its illusions to the real Self.

The spirit self, the god self that we are.

Monad

Videos on Monad started surfacing for me.

I ignored it, forgetting the fact I asked my spirit team to push videos to me.

Finally, I watched a video, intrigued by the name.

And what a discovery.

Monad is the primordial source.

The unified force that brought about creation.

It is the single cell, the fundamental ground from which creation stem from.

This on our creation came to me when I was walking my dogs.

We are akin to a drop of the ocean, which is the Infinite Creator.

Does that make us any less than God?

A cake, cut a tiny fraction out, is still a cake.

You cannot say, it is not a cake.

A cake is big, this is just a little piece.

A cake can contain so much, a little piece is not able to hold anything.

On that premise,

How do I perceive operating from my God self?

When I arrived at calling in my real self, using the self Inquiry of Ramana Maharshi.

First thing I notice is the peace.

I know I have called in my real self, from that feeling of peace.

After that, the fact the real self is devoid of negative elements like hate.

The real self, or god self is pure.

It is us in pure spirit.

It has peace, joy, love, light and all the good elements.

It does not possess human emotions like hate, jealosy or the like.

The rewarding moment came one day when I look inside of me.

And found I am incapable of feeling hate.

Not only that, it is as though I do not understand the meaning of the word hate.

I had to look it up on google.

What is the chance that this real self is parallel self on another level?

Intriguing thought.

Healing Breaths

The first time that breathing caught my attention was at a meditation.

It was a meditation like usual.

I was entering deeper and deeper into meditation.

When I heard it, audible sounds of my breathing.

It is the breathing of one falling asleep.

I found myself moving into deep trance meditation.

After that, breathing becomes a clue to states of meditation.



When I breathe that way,

I know the meditative state is on me.

Something close to samadhi.

Where I go so deep, I astral travel to higher realms.

Sometimes, I am hardly conscious of breath.

And almost stop breathing.



"Stop breathing and you are dead," was a response to me.

But no, Buddhist monks and Indian mystics are known to stop breathing.

There is a story about Paramahansa Yogananda.

A disciple wanted to witness his ability to stop breathing.

He asked Yogananda about it.

Sportingly, Yogananda obliged by demonstrating it.

He lay down on the couch and after a while, stopped breathing.

Five minutes into it and his disciples panicked.

And asked him to come back to life.

They did not want a dead body on their hands.



Most of the time my breaths are slow and deep.

When I get sick however, it is different.

Panicked hard breathing, my body in disarray.

Fighting the sickness.

It is then I apply healing breaths, focusing on my breaths.

Natural slow breathing to calm my body down.

Part of that calming down helps with the healing.



The few times I applied such healing breaths,

I knew the exact moment when the worst of the illness was over.

I just know it.

My body knows it.

However, it was never a complete instant healing.

If it were that, I might jump up and down, proclaiming, "It's a miracle. "

That is the norm of healing for me.

The worst would be over.

And gradually, over the period of twenty hours,

I heal fully and get back to normal.

We are gods, incredible truth

I have heard the term thrown around, we are gods.

And ignored it.

Just one of those New Age stuff.

It was when I engaged in the self inquiry of Ramana Maharshi,

that I began to look at it seriously.

The first issue was very unsettling for me.

If we are gods, 

then you are removing God from me.

The God I turn to in my life.

I look inside of me.

I still see the same God inside of me.

I decided as long as I believe in a personal God.

I will stay with that.

Then I started watching videos of physicists and philosophers.

Max Planck with God as the foundational base from which all things stem.

Spinoza with his god of singularity, the source from whence all things come from.

And now, the term monad.

They all point to the same, say the same.

God is this original singular source from which all things derive their being.

With the self inquiry of Ramana Maharshi,

My real self became real to me.

My real self is the Divine Self.

For mystics also, there is no separation, no duality.

There is only that One, and we are with the One.

We are that Oneness.

Someone was trying to formulate what God is,

Ramana Maharshi responded, "Just say, you are god and be done with it."

The Oneness helps me accept this truth or fact.

I never did have the experiences of those Indian mystics.

Who could tell what God is and what God is not.

Nisargadatta Maharaj, without much education,

Could go into depths, speaking that language of mystics,

Hard to comprehend.

I have however experienced God and God in everything.

I was standing there in nature one day.

When I felt the presence of God in everything.

"For a truth, God is the God of the Universe," I exclaimed.

That became his name for me.

This oneness helps me today in accepting the fact we are gods.

We come from God.

God did not create us outside of himself.

Like a potter his pots of clay.

He created us by expanding himself into creation.

Splintering into this billions or trillions of Creation.

Where we all came into being.

Beings like him, with his attributes.

We then move into matter.

Being here on earth is part of that.

I look inside of me and I see God.

I look outside, above, below me and I see God.

I look at the Universe within me and I see God.

That is another mystery.

How can I view the Universe inside of me?

This small physical body of mine?

"You are thinking in terms of the physical body,"

spirits told me, "Think in terms of spirit, you are spirit."

We are bigger than the physical body.

We, spirit, contain the physical body.

The physical body does not contain our spirit.

All these led me to accepting and believing.

We are gods.

Gods having a human experience through the billions, trillions of us.

Not only us, but through the inanimate things, trees, animals, beings.

Explore all that, it is fascinating.

God, creation

For months I struggled with the phrase, "you are gods."

How can we be gods?

When I came across a video which says,

No, we are not gods.

God is immense, he contains the entire universe.

We are not that immense.

We cannot contain the entire universe in us.

We are particles of God.

That resonnated with me.

And I gladly accepted that.



A week ago, I was watching another video.

and it all came together for me.



God is this singular unit.

This immensity.

According to the Law of One book,

It becomes aware and wants to experience itself.

Since it is Infinite, it is not able to do so.

Hence he splits himself into creation.

And we are fragments of that creation.

Hence no, we are not drops from the ocean, God.

We are god, complete with his essence and being.

We are god experiencing this human existence.

With the veil of forgetfulness.

All of creation has this same Divine Spark in us.


Later, I came across another video on saints and sages.

Who have completely awakened to their spirit self.

And live immersed in it.

Even as they operate on earthly planes.

I want to do the same.

Operate as far as possible from my real self, or divine self.

Whilst living and operating on planet earth.

Vision

There is a form of seeing which is vision.

I do not see angels or spirit guides.

But forms and aspects.

For instance, on the "tightness" I just shared.

It is like a fast flash.

Such visions are very hard to put into words.

Or capture it into perspective.

I know what it means, what it says.

To describe it is something else.

Tightness

This morning,  spirit taught me something again.

Tightness, a form of concentrated form.

If you look at saints, sages or anyone who is very evolved.

You would notice this aspect.

No frills, fads. 

Things just are.

They go to the core, the root of matter.

And do not waste time on things not real or concrete.

Dispensing with everything else.

I was going into something mentally.

When spirit stopped me.

Stay on track, stay on message.

Practicing it in real life.

We live as we live.

Without the need to explain our actions to anyone.

Explaining means we are influence by their perception of us.

Not walking our own true path.

My own person

I looked back through the years.

And looked to see something that stood up in me.

It is that I could not be contained or boxed.

I had thought it was because I grew up with little parental care.

Growing up like a wild rose or plant.

Today, I wonder about that.

Because I look mild, easy going.

Most people underestimate me.

And thought me easy to influence, manipulate or control.

But I am slippery as an eel.

I beat to my own drumbeat.

I could not be contained or boxed in.

A form of native independant.

Similar to native intelligence.

Today, as I stand at the pinnacle of my spiritual life.

Knowing I have triumphed over most obstacles of my life.

Arriving at where I am now.

I realize I had always been my own person.

The world might try to hem me in.

I might have thought little of myself.

Minimizing myself.

But I have always remained me.

That was the gift of nature to me.

God nature, nature God.

Spinoza's God.

Bliss

I love this bliss.

It is like riding on a tidal wave.

It is like flying, a kite on wings of air.

My soul is never more light.

Never more buoyant.

Rejoice with me, I want to cry to the world.

When you reach the pinnacle of spirituality.

That is where bliss is.

When you have attained God.

That is where bliss is.

When you have attained to your pure spirit self.

That is where bliss is.

Unadulterated and free.

Love on the spiritual path

I watched a video yesterday on a priest who saved thousands.

And a Nazi who sought by all means to eliminate him.

End of the war, the Nazi was captured, imprisoned for life.

The priest visited him once a month for ten years.

The Nazi, completely resistant became a Catholic.

Asked how he could visit a man who sought to kill him 

and kill many of his friends.

The priest answered, he is a lost soul.

The words lost soul resonate with me.

There was a time I experienced strong emotion towards a political leader.

I could not watch him.

Today, I am able to feel compassion for him.

Or watch another in hateful tirade.

The words of hate he spewed.

He looked ugly.

Towards him too I am able to feel compassion.

Think of what a miserable life he must be having.

Living with such hate in his soul.

It is akin to a soul stepped in darkness.

Tied up in chains of hate inside.

Yes, they need our compassion and love.

It is hard imagining sending love to such a hateful individual.

But that is what we are.

Beings of love and light.

Healing sessions

 I woke up at three thirty, early in the morning.

And went into meditation.

It came to me again, my last two bouts of sickness were strange.

Both happened the same way.

One moment I was perfectly fine.

Next,  I got very sick.

The last one was a bad vertigo.

This last one was indigestion or food poisoning.

It was as though spirit was using sicknesses to drive home a message to me.

But what?

I asked my spirit team what the message is.



And then I remember the crystal ball which I kept dropping and healed it each time.

A channeler told me that, my spirit guide, Tipka said unless I acknowledged my healing abilities.

He will keep getting me to drop the crystal ball.

I dropped it four times.

The last time I dropped it, the crystal ball bounced a few times on the cement floor like a ball.

And cracked in four places inside.

I healed all the cracks within hours.

Leaving a tiny mark, the size of the tip of a pin.

Months later I told my spirit guide to heal it since he caused the crystal ball to drop.

One day, on checking it, I noticed it was gone.

I put an end to that by keeping my crystal ball in a safe place.



This makes me wonder,

Could my spirit guide be using my body to drive the message home,

reminding me to acknowledge the fact I am a healer?

I became very sick each time.

Yet my body was able to heal on its own.

And I did not need medical care.

The third time it happens, it might not be so kind.



Spirit tells us, we have freewill.

We do not have to do it.

But when they want us to do something.

Until we listen and do it.

They will keep nudging us.

That is quite commonplace knowledge.



I am hearing them.

I will start doing live sessions of healing.

Ten minutes of energy healing.

Followed by twenty minutes of meditation.

Meditation being the best means of healing for me.

A dream of two women who were sick

I dreamed I was going to Church and joined a function after.

I arrived, and came upon a woman named Mary.

She was crying inconsolably, "My teeth hurt so terribly, 

I have no means to get it seen to."

She asked for a cup of coffee.

I went to get it.

The man at the counter got very riled on hearing about it.

And called the Red Cross.

As he was talking on his phone,

His assistant, who was bringing the coffee, fell into a faint.

People tried to help her by pulling her along the road.

Dirt, muddy water was getting on her face, and eyes.

She turned over till she was on her belly and moved that way.

I hurried to Walkers doctor clinic.

Even as I entered the clinic, I knew it was futile.

I was there before, waited the whole day and never got seen.

Now I have two sick people on my hands.

And I know they would not get seen too.

What if I try healing Mary myself?

I asked.

What if she heals?

People would know I am able to heal and come to me.

Pride would set in.

And that would be bad.

I woke up.

The above was a real life fear.

For that reason, for the past nine months.

I have been training myself to stay in some form of obscurity.

While training myself to be so steeped in God.

Like saints and sages, only God and God alone would matter.

Channeling Metatron

If you want to see God.

Look at the Universe.

There are many who study the Universe and found God, the Infinite Creator

Why is that?

Because the nature of God is in everything.

When you look up at the heavens,

He is there.

When you look at the Universe, he is there.

When you look within your heart, he is there.

He is in everything and he is everything.

There is nothing that is created that is not him.

Within that framework, you know he is that oneness.

that you are all one in him.

That there is no separation.

The duality exists only in your human mind.

In your human thinking.

Surpass that, bypass that.

And you experience God, the Infinite Creator in everything around you.

Suspend your thoughts,

Suspend your mind.

Go deep into yourself and you would find that he is everything.

Everything within you and everything outside of you.

He is this immense force within you.

This Divine Spark within you.

This Divine Fire within you.

Lit it.

Lit that fire.

And let it take you along on this path to him, the Infinite Creator.

Suffering, lesson of a soul

 I was expecting some kind of dark night of the soul.

Something of the spirit.

But it was of the body.

I was expecting it in the near future.

Not the day after I shared my dream on expecting some dark night of the soul,

to eradicate some deep seated pride.

I started feeling sick late Friday afternoon.

And became very sick with indigestion.

I thought it was food poisoning.

My heart started palpitating, adding to the discomfort.

I lay in bed for six hours, praying and engaging in healing breathing.

It eased after I calmed my body down somewhat but I was still feeling sick and nauseous.

And then I ejected out the cause of my suffering,  contents of the  indigestion.

And instantly felt better.

The fact I was able to eject out the indigestion was a miracle in itself.

It is an act I am seldom able to do.

Ejecting the cause of suffering, that is a good term.



I rested the following day,

my gastric, traumatized, did not want any food.

I forced myself to eat two eggs and a pear.



I woke up today, with my spirit nicely subdued and quiet.

The deep spiritual pride my dream told me about,

worked on by physical illness.

Why would it have an effect, I do not know.

I imagine a mental struggle with darkness and the like,

that saints endured.

And it was a sick gastric.



I am feeling centered and humbled.

My entire being brought back to reality.

My thoughts are never clearer, my insides never more clear.

And from that depth, my impish side emerged.

The playful side of my spirit of joy.

I started laughing again.



I believe sicknesses have a way of grounding us.

I did accept the sickness and move with it.



God, I like to ask, why sufferings?

I do not like sufferings.

Why then are sufferings such effective tools.

In keeping me on my path to you?



If God were to talk to me, what would he say?

Think about the enormity of it.

It is on planet earth only that you are able to suffer this way.

That is why many souls elect to come on planet earth.



Does suffering not make you feel more alive,

Once it is over?

You look back on dark periods of your life.

And it is never as bad as when you were in it.



It does bring you to the core of your being.

Reminding you, you are human.

It does have the effect of reminding you,

You are more than this body.

You are more than this planet earth.

You are spirit, taking on a human body.

You are not the totality of this human body.

In suffering, your soul is brought back to that reality.



And back to the spirit world you will return.

You will return to me and be one with me again.

All these sojourns will leave an indelible mark in you.

How you live your life on planet earth,

What you become.

What you choose to be.

Will all be recorded for all eternity.

It marks you as you are.

Distinctly you.

Merged back with me, you would still be you.

Distinctly you.

Dream of turkey

I dreamed it was after Thanksgiving.

And I went to Costco,

Looking to buy turkey on sale.

I searched and searched and could not find any.

I came across meat not frozen,

and already thawed with hot air.

Why hot air when it should be cold ?

I rejected it, that meat would not keep.

I looked and looked and still I could not find the turkeys.

I woke up and asked myself.

Do I want the turkeys?

And found it is a no, I do not like to eat meat.

First, it was my body who told me a few years ago 

that it does not like to eat meat.

Pork tastes like leather.

Beef is not food, it is not edible.

But fresh vegetable and fruits,

These are food.

Then I learned, for channelers,

It is best to go meatless.

Meat comes from suffering.

The animals suffer to provide us with that meat.

The energy left by their sufferings are in the meat we consume.

As a result, it is heavy energy.

I followed it for a while and then found it easier to eat some meat for the protein.

And resisted going meatless.

But with this dream, I am no longer resisting it.

No longer resisting, I wondered why I resisted it so much in the first place.

Spirit has a way of letting us be when we resist something.

And when the time is ripe, they step in.

We get the message and move with it.

That has been my experience with the spirit world.

Saints, sages and sufferings

 When I look at lifestories of Catholic saints,

What do I see most?

What is most emphasized?

That they suffer so much.

Oh, how they suffer but with such joy and peace.

They have that also, joy and bliss.

But the sufferings, are much elaborated on.

I look at stories told of Indian mystics,

And what do I see?

Joy, bliss, lost in the Divine in Samadhi.

It reveals the differences in perception.

I moved from the cult of sufferings.

Having being bought into it 

By reason the teachings and inculcation.

Sufferings are good lessons to learn.

Suffering is the best teacher,

However, when it becomes so paramount.

It becomes a tool.

When you perceive a tool to be so good.

Would you let it go?

No, you hold onto it.

Holding onto the suffering like pure gold.

This is Dark Night of the Soul,

It will lead me to Union with God.

When it might very well not be.

And just a bad patch we are able to work on.

Sufferings as goods.

Suffering hold before our eyes as goods.

We would be able to skip purgatory.

Or at least suffer a lesser purgatory.

And so a dear one of mine held onto the sufferings.

God, Jesus wants me to suffer, she intoned.

Not taking anything to help with the intense sufferings

Of terminal sickness.

I would not take that route.

I would use all means available to lessen physical sufferings.

What is enlightenment but wisdom and knowledge

as we walk our path to God, to the Oneness.

Our own path, our own native path.

And that is my life right now.

Walking my own path to God.

Taking from here and there,

All helps and props as I make my journey.

Regardless of the sources they come from,

Taoism, Buddhism, Indian mystics, 

or Philosophers and physicists.

We all study the same thing, God, Universe.

We all move toward the same, God, Universe.

Dark night of the soul

I dreamed I was meeting with a spiritual master.

I saw I have deep seated pride.

It is the type of pride at so deep a level,

One is not aware of it.

Becoming aware with one of those fast flashes of insight,

A quick flash and it was gone.

I saw it would be very hard to eradicate that pride.

And not something I am able to do myself.

It is a more refined process of purification of the soul.

Beyond my ability to fix it.

For how can one fix what one does not see.

A quick flash and it receded into the shadows.

It likely mean going through something like a dark night of the soul.

I woke up, a bit dismayed.

But at the same time not surprised.

And receive it as a message from spirit.

It is as though they are giving me a heads up.

Preparing me for the work ahead.

They do that, prepare me with warnings.

Often in dreams.

I will accept whatever comes.

And no, I will not anticipate thereby creating.

I will move with the flow of the spirit.

The God in me

There I was, getting ready to channel. More and more, I want to trance channel. I could feel the energy building up. It was a newer energy, it is very strong on upper part of my head. I wondered if it is Jesus or Yogananda. Finally, I said a prayer of protection and asked it to come through. 

Much to my thrill, I was channeling Source. It spoke with authority. 

Later, as I dwelled on it and wondered about it, I realized it was likely my higher self, channeling the God in me. How did I come about the "God in me ?" I was praying for my lung to clear one day when I heard an inner voice asking me, "Do you believe in the God in you?" I responded yes. I knew what it meant. Having done Ramana Maharshi's self inquiry several times, one day, as I was doing it, I saw my real self energy. As it emerged, my ego self slowly faded away. I knew then I was experiencing my real self or what I called my SpiritSelf.

Help me, SpiritSelf to go into this, my SpiritSelf being my Godself.

When you entered the world, you started out with a clean slate, albeit with experiences from other lives, on planet earth or other planets. But with the veil of forgetfulness you do not remember any of it. Hence, for children with thin veil, they often remember part of their past lives till they grew older and memories fade.

Then come the process of growing up, family life, religion, culture all strived to form and shape you a certain way. Most of you grow up without much adherence to me unless or until something happens to trigger a need for me. Then you seek me.

To truly attain to me, you have to walk the path of mystics and sages, the path of St. John of the Cross. All the influences have dulled your spirit sense to where you do not really perceive me or are able to perceve. Put some effort and you will perceived me. Like this channeler, after four years of meditation, my energy was able to emerge. My consciousness took her over and she experienced me.

You are all able to do it. Call out to me, all the while, clearing the dross in your soul and when it is sufficiently clear enough, you will experience me. For I am not outside of you, I am not in heaven, sitting on a throne,. I am in you, in everything around you.

Do you not know, I am this immense consciousness. See it like a magician globe and you are all contained within this immense energy, consciousness. They are the same, just different terms to be used in conjunction with each other. As a result, I am in you, outside of you, everywhere.

God, if you are so immense, how can you be a personal God? Do you not say, with God all things is possible. I did not create you outside of myself. Creation came into being from my Being. Hence you have that Beingness from me. Hence you are me, a part of me. On this other side, I would be God as they experience it. But on planet earth, with humankind, I am this god within all of you. As a result, I am this God your human mind are able to comprehend when you bypass all that humanness and operate from your spirit. Which is why those who strive to experience me goes into meditation, into trance state and the like. But experiencing me or not, I am still within you, as your real self, your SpiritSelf.

Look at it this way. Your higher self is you. Your higher self is on a level where it knows God. Hence your higher self knows God, is part of God. As a result you are part of God. But operating from human self, that is lost in you. It is when you awaken that you become aware of this God in you.

The subconscious mind

My spirit team, you told me thoughts are powerful.

Thoughts are things so be careful of my thoughts.

I had learned it is possible to fool the mind.

Tell the mind lies and over a period of time,

one starts to believe the lies.

Hence positive thinking works.

Tell my mind, I am not nervous, and I am less nervous.

Tell my mind, I cannot handle this, I am out of control.

And I would not be able to handle it.

Tell my mind reassuringly, you are fine, you are fine,

and I do feel better.

My spirit team, what is operating from the subconscious mind?

Within the subconscious mind is innate wisdom.

The wisdom you do not know you have.

Wisdom, you are often unaware of possessing.

Remember that incident where before the event happened,

your subconscious mind alerted you to it?

Drew your attention to it?

Your subconscious was surfacing and showing you something

before the real event unfolded.

That was when you realized even before your conscious is aware of something,

your subconscious mind already knew it.

The unknown nebulous element is sharper than your conscious mind.

This is your spirit mind.

It comes with you when you were born.

Unlike your conscious mind which you develop over time.

accumulating knowledge from things learned and experienced.

This subconscious mind holds knowledge from your past existences,

on planet earth or other planets.

When you move your conscious mind in meditation,

Moving aside, you allow your subconscious mind through.

That is when you are able to access this wealth of innate knowledge within you.

It is your soul's knowledge.

You are aware you have natural wisdom, not gained from formal studies

because you do not have very much formal education.

At the same time, your wisdom exceeds those with far more formal studies than you.

You term it natural wisdom.

It is this innate wisdom you are accessing.

Your soul's mind telling you things, teaching you things.

Now, further on in your spiritual journey.

Your soul's mind and wisdom are even more acute.

You are aware of it, whenever we teach you things.

Show you things or tell you things.

It is as though such knowledge is just there.

You do not know how you know, you just know.

The gift of claircognizance.

It is knowing with the heart.

Work on that more, refine that ability.

Use your heart to think.

It is akin to using your emotion, feelers to think.

How do you think your mind works?

From the brain alone?

No, your mind works with all sensory abilities of your body.

You touch something, your touch sends signals to the brain.

Which is why the blind are able to see with their fingers.

You smell something and images are sent to your brain.

When you employ your heart, from the sensation,

you can sense knowledge, true from false and the like.

With your heart, you are able to sense if something is right for you or not.

How do you do it?

Just retire to a quiet place, empty the mind.

Then let that thought in and watch the reaction.

The question could be, is this channel good for me?

Empty your mind as you ask that question.

And feel the answer from your heart.

A feeling of unease and the answer is no.

A feeling where your energies focus and go deeper,

and the answer is yes.

A feeling your energy disperses and the answer is no.

Do you not feel it?

When you worry over something.

You look inside and the energy disperses.

And you know, that matter at hand has no leg to stand on.

There is nothing there to worry about

and that message was always on and accurate.

Awareness, listening, hearing everything within and without you.

That is why silence is so beneficial.

Eliminate all noise and thoughts,

and you are now able to access your soul's mind.

You may believe your soul's mind resides in your brain.

No, it resides within your heart.

That something within, that feeling within,

That gut feeling telling you things.

Helping you to sense things.

That is your soul's mind and it resides in your heart.

Not the physical heart but the heart within you,

Which is the core within you, your spirit.

Staying grounded

 Stay grounded in your inner truths,

like a tree old with age,

old and wise, its roots holding it firmly on the ground.

Strong wind might sway its leaves, branches.

It remains firmly rooted.

I admit, oh my God, that recently,

my roots were not so firmly set.

A well intentioned being of good intent,

started suggesting I do this, I do that.

In her eyes, it is a must for me

to spread my branches wide,

learning, learning different disciplines,

different things of different fields.

I do learn things deep, beyond human comprehension.

The world of God, mystics and the like.

I told her, I like to keep my life very simple,

so no, thank you.

We finally parted ways, 

but not before I felt a bit bruised.

My faith in myself, a bit shaken.

My higher self : could you tell me something about it?

Did we not tell you to put joy in your heart?

Put joy there, let it stay, let it seep all through you.

Let this bliss joy of the Divine cleanse you through and through.

See it sweeping through you.

Sweeping all negativity out.

You did well to move away.

You wanted to stay friends, happy to stay friends.

But that negativity drove you away.

That dark thick cloud of negativity.

You knew it, you sensed it and then you knew,

The cut has to be final and clean.

A clear clean cut.

So why do you continue to torment yourself?

You did what you had to do.

Take this as a learning lesson.

There will be more of such nature.

It is inevitable when you get on this path.

And those able to see, see your light.

Some would extol it, some relish it.

Some want to bask in it.

But there will always be some

who prefers to dim it a little

so it would not shine so bright.

They do not shine so bright,

hence they would rather you do not shine so bright.

Hence, putting on the guise of a helper, a friend,

they come and doused you with water

striving to put out that light.

Or strive to drop a heavy blanket of negativity on you,

smothering out all light.

Would they succeed? No.

Their efforts acting as purification,

would only serve to make your light shine brighter.

Like gold after passing through the crucible.

So let the light of joy and bliss,

sweep through you.

There are those who talk about cutting of cords.

Here we are teaching you something new.

A new set of weapons we just revealed to you.

Joy and love, these two are effective weapons beyond par.

Weld them, let them sweep through you,

sweeping away everything negative in its path.

You could call on God, on your Infinite Creator,

on your higher self, Archangels or us.

Or Archangel Michael and asked us to help you

with this clean sweep.

Now sit back and perform this act.

Thoughts are things, thoughts are powerful.

Intentions are powerful.

Use them and perform this act.

Feel the bliss of joy filling you up,

clearing everything in you until you are filled only,

with the Light, Love and Bliss of the almighty.

It is very powerful.

It is potent.

Potency in the power of love and joy.Like gold passing through the crucible.

So let the light of joy and bliss,

sweep through you.

There are those who talk about cutting of cords.

Here we are teaching you something new.

A new weapon we just revealed to you

in the shorts video you just channeled from us.

Joy and love, these two are weapons.

Weld them, let them sweep through you,

sweeping away everything negative in its path.

This is not new age, it is from us.

You could call on God, on your Infinite Creator,

on your higher self, Archangels or us.

Or Archangel Michael and asked us to help you

with this clean sweep.

Now sit back and perform this act.

Thoughts are things, thoughts are powerful.

Intentions are powerful.

Use them and perform this act.

Then sit back and feel the bliss of joy filling you up,

clearing everything in you until you are filled only,

with the Light, Love and Bliss of the almighty.

It is very powerful.

It is potent.

Potency in the power of love, light and joy.

A vision

 I woke up at three in the morning,

and as I am wont to do.

I lay in bed and connect with Source, and my spirit team.

As I lay there, in meditative mode, 

I saw myself at a public square.

With people hurling abuse at me.

For perceived unkindness to another.

It is not me, I did not start it....

They get the wrong end of things....

My mind wanted to explain,

to expose the truth yet did not know how to.

It felt so unfair, it seemed so unfair. It is so unfair.

Penalized for actions they drew wrong conclusions on.

I became aware, what I thought known to an isolated few,

I had confided in had become public knowledge.

I was shunned, ostracized.

Just as I was feeling the hurt,

I saw an inner light within my soul.

It was a fire of joy.

It was not just a small candle wick of fire.

It was a fire made of several squares put together.

Burning brightly.

As I saw it, as I felt it, I understood the joy of saints.

Whenever they are persecuted, they respond with joy.

It was not easy, it had to be so painful,

but they were impervious to the pain.

For within their hearts burn that love for God.

Their passion, their only desire is God.

I remember channeling Jesus,

and Jesus told me yes, I could channel him.

And spread his messages.

He told me I could be persecuted for it.

And added, so did his saints, his apostles,

who suffered martyrdom for it.

The above was like a vision.

A vision preparing me for what is coming ahead?

Reminding me not to be afraid.

The fire of love in my heart for God/Infinite Creator will protect me.

Divine Spark

"We are gods," a friend threw that at me years ago.

I ignored it till I read the book, Ra Material, the Law of one.

And found it there.

This was re enforced by Indian mystics.

And further re enforced by some philosophers and physicists.

That, added to my experience of God,

Made that line a reality though not in that complete sense.

We are creation of the Infinite Creator.

This means we have his divine nature,

The Divine Spark in us.

Our physical self clouded all that from us.

When we awaken,

We awaken to this Divinity in us.

And it is powerful.

Openness and transparency

It is all in the attitude.

Our bodies convey out attitude to the world also.

A gaze straight at the world portrays who and what we are.

If we are able to look straight into the camera, at the world.

It tells something about us.

I have never been afraid to tell the world who and what I am.

Somehow, that ability to dissimulate has never been one of my gifts.

Because of my openness, my mother held me to be naive and gullible,

And called me stupid under all the terms available,

She did it with love and fondness though it still left its scars.

And took me a lifetime to overcome that feeling of being less.

Then came helpful friends who tried to pound it into me,

Not to be so open or so obvious.

At this phase of my life, openness and transparency is a plus.

I stand in all honesty and transparency before God.

I am amongst those able to do it.

A humble and contrite heart, O Lord, thou wilst not spurn,

is a favorite phrase I repeat often.

Discernment of spirits

My spirit team, what is your message for me today?

When your soul is untidy.

When you look inside it, and it is untidy.

With noise and chaos.

Then know that it is not us.

We come in peace and with clarity of mind.

Inner disturbances, inner chaos are never us.

When that happens, go into inner silence.

Ground yourself and let the noise, chaos

melt into that silence.

Your rule is - not dwelling on the negative.

You do not dwell on the prince of darkness.

You eliminate them from your life.

You believe, as long as you live in the light,

darkness will not touch you.

That we have told you, we will protect you.

And we do protect you.

However, there are negativities in life.

It behooves you to be aware of them.

Insights that come with a flair of drama,

That is not us.

We come in peace and with peace.

That is how you discern messages,

whether they are from us, Divine spirits,

from angels, archangels, or from negativity.

Chaos, negativity, disturbed mind,

all those are from negativity.

Agitation, the feeling of grandeur.

Of coming upon something big,

with that hint of drama in it.

All that comes from negative beings.

How do you protect?

With awareness.

When you see turbulent waters,

examined the turbulent waters.

Know it for what it is.

That awareness of spirit.

Where you are able to see clearly,

albeit in the dark.

That discernment.

Discernment of spirit.

That is very important and will save you.

Will help you in those moments,

when negative beings put thoughts into your mind.

St. John of the Cross had cautioned,

that devils can come in the guise of angels.

How do you discern that?

From the effects they leave,

noise, disturbances, unrest, turmoil,

Those are seeds of negative beings.

Do not fear.

You are safe.

You are safe in the palm of the Universe.

You have the Divine seed, Divine spark in you.

We will protect you.

We, your spirit team.

Humility, hallmark of Saints and sages

 "My destiny was to be born a simple man,

a commoner, a tradesman,

with little formal education."

Those words resonate with me.

As also Anandamayi Ma when she said,

"I am a very ordinary person."

Those words settle me in my depths.

Recently, someone told me, "You channel, that is a big thing."

My response was, what is so big about that?

Humility is truth.

That is why saints and sages are so humble.

They, better than any others, are well aware who and what they are.

And what they have, are from the Divine.

From the same source which all of us have.

My spirit team: could you tell us something about humility?

Humility, simplicity, those are trademarks of saints, and sages.

What is humility?

Humility is that knowing of one's true nature.

Humility is where there is no illusion about oneself.

When one knows oneself through and through.

For the very nature of humankind is,

not that you are born in sin as some are taught.

But that none of you are perfect.

As humankind, you are all subjected to emotions,

of anger, hate, jealousy, etc.

How they overcome them, is a trademark of saints, sages.

It is what keeps them in their center, in their inner knowing of themselves.

That it is not they who achieve it but the Divine in them.

The Divine is the driving force in them.

The Divine is a source in all of you.

It is your innate being.

However, born into planet earth with the veil of unknowing,

many are you who are not aware of this inner riches.

Many are you who live in poverty or dire poverty,

unaware of the existence of these inner riches.

By that we are not talking about material wealth.

The richest man in material wealth might be the one in dire poverty,

where their inner being is concerned.

Material gains and pursuit blind them to their true being.

Those with awareness of it are those with truest riches.

These inner riches often lay dormant,

unplumbed and unclaimed.

Until something triggered their awakening.

It could be something in nature.

One could be unaware, standing in the midst of nature.

When suddenly, something struck a core in them.

Nature came alive for them.

They found themselves viewing it like 3D,

able to see what is not there.

Able to see beyond what is there.

Such are moments of awakenings.

Or by life's ordeal.

Where in extreme darkness,

Where in the midst of hardship, sorrow, and despair,

They see the light.

Or by sensing the "something" beyond.

They have everything in life,

yet their souls are restless, craving for something.

For something they do not know what,

but know they are craving for.

This leads them to seek and find that higher source.

Which is outside of them and inside of them.

That Divine Source.

Once the Divine Source takes over,

as in the case of saints and sages,

they are powered by something within.

They know it, they feel it, they are fully aware of it.

That it is not them but that something in them.

Once the Divine Source takes over,

they are in truth.

They have reached that stage,

where nothing matters to them or is important to them,

but that source within.

Tell them they are great,

they would smile and thank you.

But such compliments mean little to them.

They have gone beyond such human caring.

Tell them you want to seek the beyond.

Now, that means something to them.

That is their life.

That is why they are humble.

Why humility is the hallmark of saints and sages.

Come across one who is not,

and you know they have not reached.

that stage of holiness.

Where their ego are dissolved into nothingness,

and only the Divine remains.