La' Sha, Ra Collective

 On Monday, 3rd Feb, I was training to trance channel.

The energy was very strong. 

It became stronger and stronger.

I detached till I was in nothing nothing.

And waited for the energy to come in.

I was in a space when I saw and knew who it was.

I called out, "Ra Ha Sha, is that you?"

And felt a tide of grief welling up.

I released it, it started being crying,

and went into loud grieving.

It was akin to when we believe someone died.

And never did allow ourselves to grieve.

And when the person emerged, 

There is the joy and the missing.

I cried it out.

For those who do not know the history.

I had sessions with La' Sha through a channeler.

I would not go into details, suffice to say, 

The channeler told her followers, La' Sha dropped me.

I knew it not to be true.

At the same time, since La' Sha is a collective.

From the Ra Collective, I decided to merge him back into the collective.

And when I channeled, I used Ra Collective only.

Through the months, I did ask him, 

Were you real, did you really ask me to channel you?

This energy with me, that is real, but was that you?

When he came through on Monday,

he affirmed that yes, he has always been with me.

I asked him by what name should I call him,

Since Ra Ha Sha is no longer I can use.

He suggested using the Chinese version of it, La' Sha.

He had given me Llasa before. 

Somehow that name never stick.

But La' Sha is different.

The same time but written differently.

Later in the day, my spirit team told me,

Just take that joy and run with it.

Everything else is secondary.

You have moved passed that period of time.

Let it go and just move with the joy.

And I did.