Shadow work to attain to Source, God.

What a spiritual journey it is to attain to Source, God.

St John of the Cross called it, the path of the nadas, nothing nothing nothing.

How do I understand the nadas at this moment in time, looking back.

Denudation, emptying of the self, so God could fill it.

Emptying it of all dross and noise with the aid of shadow work.

For a truth, God does lead the soul.

When I left the confines of the monastery.

I found myself engaging in what I called pursuing truth wherever it is.

It implies mainly, pursuing truths about myself, brutally.

Stripping away the layers of false selves.

Uncovering myself, what I really am, truly am at the core of my being.

Facing, the good and the bad but mostly the bad.

The good are not threat, the bad are a threat.

It took not just years but four decades of my life 

before I moved into trance meditation.

I did not term it as such when it first happened.

I just knew I was able to sit hours in prayer without noticing the time.

One day, I sat for five hours. That was a stretch, a feat, one I did not try again.

With time, I moved deeper and deeper into trance states.

Now I am almost always with it.