My life's lessons

 For several days I asked myself, “I had a youtube channel,

I was making videos. I was engaged in livestreams.

And then I simply left. I not only left,

I burned all the boats, bridges, everything and started anew here.”

I have no intention of returning, ever.

I had actually overstayed my welcome.

I left months ago, but hovered over the edge of that youtube civilization.

And then I really left.

I asked myself, I spent all of five years there, beginning to end.

Why? What were those years about?

And the answer came, “Just as you were eleven years at the monastery,

You had been at that youtube circle for five years.

You left, just as you left the monastery.

Did you go back to the monastery again? No, you left.

With a story to tell, to share and lessons learned.

So also this, you have a story to tell, to share and lessons learned.

Did you not accomplish all this in two months?

This channel with 170 shorts in two months.

You have accomplished that much, you are a pro at it.

With that insight came peace and what peace.

With that peace, I go deep within myself.

Seeking God, seeking the Almighty.

One with God, one with the Almighty.

He is with me, he resides in me,

I only have to turn my gaze inward and I see him.

He is a living Force within me.

Ramana Maharshi would say, 

“You are he and he is you and be done with it.” The God in me.