Jesus' presence

Jesus, yesterday, I strived to make you real for me.

It was striving.

It was forcing it.

It did not feel real.

After a while, I let it go.

It was as though those efforts waft up to you like a prayer.

Like a song from my soul.

One you hearkened to.

For lo behold.

Today, without striving for it.

I felt it.

The holy unction.

Felt you with me.

I with you.

It was an experience.

A living vivid experience of you.

Of you being with me.

It was real, living.

Not something I strived after.

But something that happened.

I knew then this was real.

You are with me.

I am committed to you.

My soul is committed to you.

Before, I told myself.

I do not need an intermediary with God.

You were said to be the intermediary.

That we could not go directly to God.

He is too great, too immense.

That was why you came down to earth,

To be this bridge between God and man.

But I experienced God himself, by myself.

I did not need you as an intermediary.

I decided it was something the Church teaches.

Not something we really need.

Hence I proclaimed it has always been the Godhead for me.

That I never experienced that kind of devotion to you.

I was almost proud of that fact.

That I reach God myself.

On my own.

But today, something happened.

It is that unity.

The unity you told us about.

Of you being in us.

We in you.

And in the Father.

There is that unity.

The beauty of that unity.

There is no separation.

Just that oneness.

And with that, I felt one with you.

One with God.

One in the Divine Unity.

It is no longer a matter of needing.

It is a matter of being.

It just is, this unity you told us about.

You in us, we in you and in God.