My desire

For some time now, my desire is to reach that level of spirituality.

Where my prayers would be effective.

I looked at Ramana Maharshi.

He sat in silence.

People who went to him, would sit in silence with him,

 and experience healing or receive spiritual graces.

I wanted to have some of that ability.

To attain to that, I have to be further on my spiritual path.

And so I aspired toward that.

At the same time, it was a secret I kept in my soul.

For how do I confess to that?

It is like so much spiritual pride.

Yet over time, I came to divulge it, confess to it and shared it.

As the desire become more earnest.

I realize as our desires are, as our passions are,

so also the same is our goal in life.

I like to believe I have attained to it somewhat.

I have a condition where my throat closes up.

Almost once a year I have to get it stretched.

Recently, it was closing up again.

I prayed and much to my surprise it opens out,

To where I am no longer feeling the constriction.