By its fruits, you know the tree

By the fruits, ye shall know them.

That saying become very clear to me last year when I tested my insides.

And found myself incapable of feeling hate.

Not only that, I found I do not understand hate.

Or how it feels to hate.

It is as though hate is simply removed from me.

Anger, dislike I understand but hate.

It becomes something I do not understand.

I realized the truth of those words,

By its fruits, you would know them.

By the fruits of spirituality, we are able to gauge our progress,

on our path to Oneness.

Today, it was something of a different nature.

For a long time, I engaged in a behavior pattern I did not like.

It was a  minor flaw but still, it was something I did not like.

Something I was not proud of.

I tried to move from it but found myself engaging in it every time.

Today, the situation presented itself.

And I found I could no longer engaged in it.

It brought me little pleasure.

Before, even with the shame, it brought me some pleasure.

Today, it not only did not bring me any pleasure.

I could not even indulge in it.

Just like that, this vice was removed from me.

Noting it, I realize I have travelled a notch further on my spiritual path.

That is how Universe often works also.

We could be struggling with a flaw, unable to remove it or even soar above it.

And suddenly one day, it is removed from us.

Love, how to send love.

Jesus' words, "Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you."

One day, I was at meditation when spirit taught me how to send love.

Open my heart and send love out.

I was sending it out when I hit an obstacle.

"There is a block there," I told my spirit team.

It was a big lump of solid material.

I knew it to be a person I had a recent altercation with.

Hence a block I had little desire to deal with.

"Ignore the feeling, embrace the lump and continue sending,"

Spirit told me. I did.

It took some effort but I did it.

At the end of the meditation, I found I was able to really send love.

The love sent effectively removed the lump.

To this day, I am able to feel love for the person.

That is the power of Love.

And that is one example of how spirit teaches me.

Power of my being

I am beginning to practice it.

The power of my being.

In daily living, whenever I do something.

I arrest my thoughts.

I arrest questions of, did I say it right?

Or questions of, "what would they think of me?"

Or, "Did I come across as less?"

I banish all with the reminder,

I am a spirit being, I have God in me.



I engaged in self minimizing most of my life.

I am less, and others more.

I was a master at self-sabotaging.

It came from a lifetime of conditioning.

But now I have become strong,

With my path to Oneness.



When you concentrate on the One.

On God, the Infinite Creator.

Operating from that higher realm.

It is easier to dismiss things with,

Does it matter?

Is it important?



When you ask yourself those questions.

You will find most things are of little importance.

Things, at one time we attach so much importance to.

When you envision your higher purpose in life.

Many things matter little.



It is looking at the bigger picture of spirit.

Moving away from the small world of the material being, the ego self.

At the same time, it took me a lifetime to arrive at this.

At my real self, my eternal self, my godself.

Channeling Source

In the past, whenever I received a special grace,

My spirit would tell me to arrest my mind

And do not allow my thoughts to dwell on it.

Thoughts that could possible taint with its ego trip

Of self congratulations and the like.

Now, that is less a threat and my mind does dwell on it.

With love and deep felt gratitude.

Yesterday, I was training to trance channel the Collective.

After more than half an hour, I felt their energy getting stronger.

And was getting ready to channel them.

When I experienced a sudden shift of energy.

And saw more than heard the words, "I am coming in."

When I began channeling and heard the words, "I am the One."

I knew it was Source.

One moment I was channeling the Collective.

The next, almost unceremoniously, Source came in.

Its energy, a lot stronger.

Source, whenever it comes in, barges in and starts speaking through me.

I have channeled Source one time only like this.

It was so momentous.

Its energy so strong, it left me in awe.

Days after, I tried to repeat that channeling.

But it never happened again.

I did not push it, I let it go.

And accepted the fact I may never channel him that way again.

And yesterday, out of nowhere, he came in.

Out of nowhere because I was working on channeling the Collective.

The Collective had told me, if another being with a message wants to come in,

They will move aside and let them in.

They were literally pushed aside yesterday.

If you ask me, what this channeling of Source is,

I could not tell you.

I can only tell you Source energy is very strong.

When he speaks, he speaks with power and authority.

No mincing of words.

And he uses the words, "I am...."

That is how I know it is Source.

Channeling source

This morning, I reached out to a dog who is dying.

I found myself in this space which is God.

And found I was able to connect across time and space.

A few hours later, I set to engage in trance channeling.

While engaging in it, I asked the collective to help me describe that experience.

I began to channel the collective when I felt Source taking over.

When I heard, "I am the one...." I knew Source was taking over.

Source did it once.

It was such an awesome experience, I tried to channel Source.

But never really channeled him that way till this morning.

By that way, I mean trance channeling.

Where I feel his energy very strongly taking me over.

And speaking through me.

Channeling my spirit team

 This spirit team I am channeling is wonderful to experience.

It takes me a while, half an hour to forty five minutes.

Before I find myself entering into a deep trance state.

Where I have no doubt this spirit team I am channeling is taking me over.

It is a very nice euphoric feeling concentrated around my third eye and crown chakra.

When I feel it, I just want to close my eyes and sink into it.

Enjoying the feel of this energy.

Everything feels possible when I have this energy.

I am able to fly, to traverse time and space.

I am able to will my spirit to take flight.

Visit the tunnel they created for me, of the colors of the seven chakras.

As I enter it and walk through each color, my corresponding chakras open.

I often stay there in meditation.

this tunnel or cave that opens out to the universe.

Sometimes I go to the planet I come from.

Gentle with lights, bright and spacious.

Or I go to their planet of light.

They brought me there once.

It was a place of white light, bright and white.

As with being transported to other realms,

I knew I was in one.

Later, they verified, yes, they brought me there.

There are so many possibilities when one has attained to higher realm.

When in meditation, one readily accesses these higher realms.

Though it is easier some times than other times.

For as in spiritual life, there are periods of light and dkarkness.

During periods of light, one feels very light 

and can travel anywhere and everywhere

During periods of darkness, one feels more earth bound.

The marvelous and miraculous are not so readily felt.

That is the marvel of the spirit world.

There is so much to it.

The layers, the depths, the immensity.

It is all, everything.

Yet nothing tangible or real to the physical self.

But when one is spirit, it matters not.

One operates from the spirit.

And we are spirit and light, though possessing of a physical body.

Oneness, how do I understand it to be?

Oneness, we are One, there is no duality, no separation.

My spirit team, help me go into it.

Oneness is the Divine Essence, that Divine Spark in us.

We all have that.

We are all one but different manifestations of him.

We are interconnected as a whole, manifesting him.

It is this, what the book, the Law of One taught.

That first there was the Original One, a single unit.

He was, he is, he always will be.

This Original One becomes aware.

With awareness, comes the desire to experience himself.

He expands himself into this creation.

Through each of his creations, he experiences himself.

This means, we are gods by participation.

As some have it, we are manifestations of his thoughts.

Manifestation of this Intelligent infinity.

It leaves me in awe, 

how similar Edgar Cayce's readings are with The law of one teachings.

It is like affirming what the book, The Law of One teaches us.

According to Edgar Cayce, God did not create us one by one,

We all came into being together, millions of us.

When we were first created, we had the properties of God.

We were spirits, pure spirits fresh from God.

By degrees, we lost it.

Those abilities become buried under, atrophied.

Don Chapman said something similar to that, 

going into our preternatural gifts.

Hence by Oneness, it does not mean we are all the same.

But that we are interconnected, all with that Divine in us.

However, we are different manifestations of the Infinite Creator.

Each of us with our own autonomy.

I have always marveled at how there are billions of us.

Yet no two faces are the same unless we are born identical twins.

That to me is one marvel of God's creation.

Jesus- on the God in me

When I found myself turning to Jesus.

Automatically, I fell back into the way I worship him.

Slavish, mindless, dependent fully on him.

Fuelled by prayers of, I can do all things only with him.

As I moved towards that, I felt him tell me.

"You have God in you. Stay with that."

In that instant, I experienced it.

Myself as an autonomy, full of power and strength.

It was as though Jesus was telling me.

No, no slavish mindless adoration.

You have the God in you.

You have the Divine Spark in you.

Stay strong and powerful in your own right.

As I watched videos of Edgar Cayce,

It is what he said Jesus came to teach us.

To discover the Kingdom of God within.

To awaken to the God within us.

That Jesus did not want us to engage in blind adoration, worship of him.

He wants us to follow his path of awakening to the Divine in us.

To reach our full potential as he did.

Jesus told us that in the gospel,

That which he does, we are able to do and greater than those he did, we are able to do.

Genuine Spiritual teachers

Spiritual teachers abound.

I am careful who I expose myself to.

A lie, told often enough, would begin to sound real.

That is what cults are built on.

A program built to slowly, progressively take over a person.

Until without knowing it, the person gets taken over.

For that reason, with scammers rappart, I do not allow them in.

I do not presume to think, I am able to detect their lies and start listening.

One foot in and they take a yard.

Before one knows it, they have taken over.

That is the power of indoctrination.

My criteria with spiritual leaders is one only.

Are they able to admit when they are wrong.

That for me, is the true test for authenticity.

The ability to admit one is wrong.

Truly great spiritual leaders have that intrinsic humility 

To acknowledge and admit when they are wrong.

For no one is infallible.

A humble mind is an open mind.

An open mind is able to pursue truths wherever it is.

And truths are the only edifices to build our lives on.

Truths and Love, love and truths those are the main pillars of spiritual life.

Doctors or self healing

I have been asked about seeking medical attention,

Versus the ability to heal ourselves.

While I believe we have the ability to heal ourselves.

Faced with medical issues, I would seek medical attention,

And apply to it, techniques of self healing.

Engaging in meditation, reiki, breathing healing exercises.

Here,  I could apply what Ra, in the book, The Law of One said,

On being asked about moving mountains.

Yes, we are able to do it, if we are so evolved spiritually,

We are some kind of transcendent beings.

It accounts for saints, sages performing healing miracles.

They added also, if it is a group effect.

Then one does not have to be that evolved.

The energy and power of the group could affect that.

Hence the power of praying in groups.

Something to that effect.

Whilst I believe in self healing.

I engaged in it, using reiki, meditation and breathing.

And have on several occasions experienced instant healing or fast healing.

Faced with medical issues, I would seek modern medicine.

Take my recent brush with retinal vein occlusion or stroke of the eye.

If my spirit team did not alert me to my condition or pushed me to seek medical attention.

I would have lost that eye.

By dint of the treatment with injections, meditation, and breathing healing exercises.

My left eye has healed.

Silence, tool of communication

 In my soul is an unwritten song.

Unwritten because spirit goes beyond language.

It has no language.

In deep inner silence I look at my God.

Deep within my being.

I look at him wordlessly.

A long unwavering look.

I keep the eyes of my inner soul fixed on him.

Looking at him long and drawn,

Yet witthout saying a single word.

It is my soul's form of communcation with its God.

That sense of knowing, that awareness.

In that look is communication.

It is communicating with my God.

My conscious mind does not know what it is/

What it is about, my spirit self knows.

My spirit self is aware of it.

And so my conscious self bows in acquiesence.

Honoring that silent communication.

Silence is the communication.

I understand now the importance of silence.

Why all mystics stressed on silence.

It is because spirit has no language.

To hear the spirit, one does it through silence.

What you may ask do you gain from it.

When you neither hear or know the words.

The spirit knows hence the soul knows.

I just know it is an inner form of knowing.

That when I have something to bring to fore.

I look at it, and I look at God.

And know it is being worked on.

How I know it, I do not know.

I just know it.

It is subtle, it is delicate.

It is just a knowing of the soul.

Deep in silence

Everything in silence and awareness.

This communication of my soul with its God.

Benefit of spirit guides

 I was reading Tao Te Ching when it struck me.

I write verses,  in format like the Tao.

Some lines are long and some short.

Following no particular order.

Not worrying about rhyming or the like.

Though a part of me did wonder.

If readers might have issues with that.

Noticing that about Tao Te Ching helped freed me.

From all such concerns.

For what is truth but to let it flow out.

Where does it flow from,

This inner knowledge, this inner knowing.

From divine source within, from divine source without

Within, it could come from my eternal self or higher self.

Without, from my spirit team, guides and angels.

One day I asked them, this spirit team of mine.

Why would I need to make you so present in my life?

I am living my life on planet earth,

My existence is on planet earth not in the spirit realm.

So why is the spirit realm important?

We, humans, should live our lives by ourselves.

Looking to the spirit world for help should be a plus.

An accessory, not a must.

And the answer came soon after.

Spirit world does answer.

The answer often comes by way of knowing.

It was as though they told me,

“Aha, but you got it wrong,

You are more spirit than you are human.

You have lived billions of years in human timing.

We do not have time, you do.

You have lived on other planets, universes.

Before electing to come down to planet earth.

You are more spirit than human.

This human existence forms a minuscule part of your life.

A very short existence.

It will soon be over and you will be back with us.

So tell us, should we not be of help.

Over on this side.

After all, you come from here,

You were with us,

Now you are on planet earth.

In the twinkle of an eye.

You will be back here with us again."

And that was enlightening.

I did not ask them about that again.

And increasingly find myself living more and more in spirit.

By that, I mean living more and more from my eternal self.

Which is my spirit self.

It is how sages, saints, yogis lived.

Wrapped up in the spirit world.

Living more in the spirit world than in this earthly realm.

Even when they attend to matters of the earth.

We are spirits.

As we journey inward,

We reached the Divine

Which is spirit.

On reaching the Divine.

We become more spirit than this physical form.

And operate more from our spirit.

It is living in two worlds.

Spirit and physical.

I do not know how it is for others.

For me, whilst loving it.

The energies from the spirit.

Can be a bit draining.

It fills me up even as it drains me.

It fills me up with euphoric high.

It drains me because spirit energy

When it enters my physical self.

Is often draining, at times, jarring.

In intense form,

Nerve endings on my head start,

Pulling, twitching, vibrating.

Area around upper reaches of my head,

Are especially affected.

As I enter deeper and deeper into trance.

But, I would not trade this,

For anything in the world.

The sinking into the Divine.

It is bliss, pure bliss.

The Collective had told me.

When all transitionings  are over.

I will not only experience bliss.

But pure bliss.

They are so right, this is pure bliss.

Dedication to God

 There was a time I looked at those dedicated to causes and marveled at them.

How does one give one's life over completely to a single cause?

Jane Goodall with the Gorillas.

Sages to their spirituality.

I was not able to do it.

I was attached to little things.

Shopping for one.

Though I did not buy expensive big items, 

I love treating myself to little items.

There was also the Korean Drama series I was addicted to.

When it happened, I do not know.

I just know one day I look at myself.

And I am dedicated to my path to God.

The past few months I was engaged in self training.

Steeping myself firmly in God.

Moving away from the material world.

Training myself to operate more and more from my spirit self.

In the past, when I was working on a flaw.

I did it by keeping my gaze on it by a sort of awareness,

till by degrees I worked on it and freed myself from it.

I found myself employing the same tactic.

I kept looking at God in my depths.

At the spirit world with words of Jesus resounding in my mind.

The world, as we know it, is passing away.

Why put so much stock on it?

Slowly, I was able to feel myself separating from it.

I live simply, like a hermit.

I eat simply, drawn to fresh and healthy.

Less is more.

What does it befit a man to live in a mansion.

Coveting and coveting more wealth when he or she already have more than enough?

Death might come calling and that is the end of everything.

Myopic, myopia.

I do not want to live that way.

Hence I look to Jesus, to the saints and sages.

And learned from them.

From the teachings of Jesus to the Hindu mystics, to Buddhists holy men.

Who teaches us a valuable lesson, 

Of the impermanence of things.

Of the importance of living this life as best as we get,

While straining ahead to the next life.

Metaphysics, mysticism

Years ago, when I first got into mysticism as a nun,

a priest suggested I go into metaphysics.

More than half a century later, I found myself doing it,

and making the connection.

What is the link between metaphysics and mysticism?

This link of science and spirituality?

The study of the Universe.

God is the Universe.

Immensity of God

My soul is wrapped almost always in darkness.

Dark because the Infinite Creator is darkness to the mind.

In this darkness and void, I look at my God.

And ask, what is there I need to know?

I love this darkness and void.

It is so peaceful and I am one with the Infinite Creator.

I close my eyes and I am one with him.

I look inside myself and I am one with him.

Verily, I live and move in with him.

Why ever not since he is in me.

This Divine Spark that is of God.

That is within me.

I love to just look at space.

The vast empty space and see that as the base, God.

Metaphysics and spirituality.

They merge and blend, showing us the essence of the Universe, God.

I love to look at the vastness of the universe within me and see God.

The ultimate truth, the ultimate reality.

God, the Infinite Creator is this immensity of consciousness

That encompasses everything.

He was a unit of itself that always was.

He has no beginning.

Mystics of all ages attest to that.

How could anything not have a beginning?

I will comprehend it when I am on the other side.

On this side, with a puny mind as human, I accept it as truth.

This unit, this one cell of Love becomes aware.

Becoming aware, he wants to experience himself.

And brought forth this creation of the universe, universes.

Some hold us to be a thought form of the Infinite Creator.

Or Love of the Creator, his Infinite Love creating us.

Whatever he is, he is this immense consciousness.

I can sit here, and look at him and be with him.

This immense nothingness of consciousness which is him.

I feel it, my soul at peace. my inner house at peace, void of everything.

As I lost myself in him, in his immensity of being.

He is not a person the way we perceive each other to be.

He cannot be contained.

He is huge, he is immense, he is Infinity.

Yet he knows us, he knows all of us by name, by form, by being.

For we come from him, we are of him.

Could a body forget a limb on his body or a cell on his body?

So also God knows us.

His immensity fills us, his loving kindness fills us.

Accompanying us in our daily life with that element we call providence of God.

Do we not experience it?

The Universe takes care of us at every turn, when we do stop to reflect and look.

And see the hand of God in our lives.

When hard knocks come to us, that too is from God, from the Universe.

Setting us on the right path, when we stray.

If we persist in straying, we have free will, he would wait.

And when the time is ripe, the knocks come across.

If we still do not listen, he waits. 

Universe is patient till one day, he lets us know.

This is it, no more second chances, change.

We receive the message and change.

That is how the Universe works with my soul.

Yes, that is what I have been doing.

Looking at God within, and in the immensity of the Universe and space.

But mostly looking at him, within the deep depths of my soul.

Jesus, God

Gratitude fills my heart.

Thank you, God, Universe, for your care of me.

For leading me back to Jesus, full circle.

Jesus, in his fullness of being.

As God, as Divinity, as an Avatar, Ascended Master,

As the Jesus who walks the pages of the Gospel.

Jesus, if you were talking to me now.

What would you say?

Look to your heavenly Father.

Look within your deeper inner being.

There he is, residing, this Divine Spark in you.

When you look within at this Divine Spark.

You find me also.

When you look without, at everything around you,

You find him also, in the Divine spark in everything and every beings around you.

There is no separation, there is only that Oneness.

When you discover the truth of that Oneness.

Then love and joy fill your heart.

You have awaken your Divine Being.

You have arrived at the one and Infinite truth.

At that Oneness, the Father, Son, Holy Spirit.

Encompassing you all.

Look within yourself.

Silence all noise, as in thoughts and deeds.

And you will hear me.

A loving gentle presence within in.

For I am with you, to the end of the days.

Find light within my spirit, enlightenment.

It will light your way on your path to that Oneness.

To the ultimate reality, to the Divine Being, to God, your heavenly Father.

Jesus' message

Jesus, you asked me to take care of your flock.

I do it with meditation. 

Meditation is my tool for everything.

When I am sick, I meditate.

When I am in distress, I meditate.

When I want to connect with God, with you, I meditate.

Jesus, if you were to speak through me today.

What message do you have for us?

Love God and love your neighbor as yourself.

Therein lies the entire commandment.

The base of all spiritual teachings.

Everything is contained within that,

Love of God and love of neighbor.

Start your day with sending a prayer to the God, your heavenly father.

And then ask yourself, how may I be of service to others today.

It does not have to be in specific deeds.

When you pray, pray to your father in heaven,

And as you pray, remember your brethren.

You may ask, who are my brethren?

They are everyone around you and everyone in the universe.

For I say unto you, you are brothers and sons of God.

You are one with the Father.

I am Jesus, I come in love and peace.

I come always in love, peace, unity and harmony.

Oneness= God

For days now, I watched videos.

They were all along the same theme.

God as consciousness.

God, as base.

This immense space where we come from.

There is no separation.

God is.

God is this ocean and we, drops from it.

God is this space,  where we all sprang from.

God is this unity, giving birth to all of us.

It was just that reality.

That one reality of God.

I did not tire of it.

I heard that song from the mystics.

But now I am hearing it from the physicists.

The same song, sung differently.

Telling me the same thing.

That God is consciousness,

That he is the base.

The immensity we all are a part of.

He wants to experience himself.

Hence we came into being.

He experiences everything through us.

We experience everything for him, with him and in him.

Jesus' presence

Jesus, yesterday, I strived to make you real for me.

It was striving.

It was forcing it.

It did not feel real.

After a while, I let it go.

It was as though those efforts waft up to you like a prayer.

Like a song from my soul.

One you hearkened to.

For lo behold.

Today, without striving for it.

I felt it.

The holy unction.

Felt you with me.

I with you.

It was an experience.

A living vivid experience of you.

Of you being with me.

It was real, living.

Not something I strived after.

But something that happened.

I knew then this was real.

You are with me.

I am committed to you.

My soul is committed to you.

Before, I told myself.

I do not need an intermediary with God.

You were said to be the intermediary.

That we could not go directly to God.

He is too great, too immense.

That was why you came down to earth,

To be this bridge between God and man.

But I experienced God himself, by myself.

I did not need you as an intermediary.

I decided it was something the Church teaches.

Not something we really need.

Hence I proclaimed it has always been the Godhead for me.

That I never experienced that kind of devotion to you.

I was almost proud of that fact.

That I reach God myself.

On my own.

But today, something happened.

It is that unity.

The unity you told us about.

Of you being in us.

We in you.

And in the Father.

There is that unity.

The beauty of that unity.

There is no separation.

Just that oneness.

And with that, I felt one with you.

One with God.

One in the Divine Unity.

It is no longer a matter of needing.

It is a matter of being.

It just is, this unity you told us about.

You in us, we in you and in God.

Coming home full circle to Jesus

Jesus, like the sheep that strayed, I have strayed.

I went after everything and anything but you.

I dabbled with Taoism, Buddhism, Indian mystics.

I went into channeling the Extra Terrestrial beings.

This was followed by forays into Indian Mystics.

Where I became enamoured of Ramana Maharshi, Paramahansa Yogananda and Babaji.

It greatly enhanced and advanced my spiritual path.

And started my path back to you.

From that Indian spirituality, I learned you went there to learn from Masters of spirituality.

It helped me view you with different mind and consciousness.

Seeing you in your totality as the Christ.

Culminating with watching videos of Edgar Cayce on you.

Whilst listening to one, you suddenly become very real to me.

Not only that, I felt one with you.

One with you yet distinctly me.

I felt like I have come home.

I feel safe.

And found myself bathed in a golden hue of light.

The golden light, sacred, and transcendent.

It glowed.

It affirmed this union with you.

I in you. You in me. And we in the Father.

God and yearnings

Yesterday, I sensed it again,  that strong need for God.

It has been a while since I experienced that need.

A need of, "give me God or I die."

It was literally that.

By mid morning, the feeling grew, I went to meditate.

Satiating my soul with God.

An hour later, and I still felt it and more.

The need was so acute, I was in a state.

I felt almost physically sick.

I went back to meditation.

Sinking deep into God and the feeling eased.

Again, it came to me, it is lonely being a present day mystic.

Who can I go with such experiences?

Am I going crazy?

Is this some  kind of neurological disorder?

The only assurance I have that it is not, is the fact.

It is an affliction for God.

Once I allow satiety, the intensity of feeling ease.

Is this what St. John of the Cross wrote about?

Wounding me, you fled. 

I went after you and you were nowhere to be found.

Ignore the physical symptoms, I told myself.

St. John of the Cross called it an onslaught on the physical senses.

Overtime, the body will acclimatize to this influx of God into the soul.

And the physical side effects will be less.

I do not mind it as long as I know it is due to that.

But when the energy is so strong, it causes me to feel on edge.

My entire being under the onslaught of this energy.

It is starting again.

I better move into meditation. 

It is the only way to ease this feeling of being taken over by this energy.

I know this Force I know from God.

Because all I want to do is sink my soul deep into God and be lost in him.

God, one with God.

Oh my God, I am dying dying.

So great is my longing for you.

I feel I am hanging in mid air.

Wrack by yearning for you.

I just want to sink deep into myself.

And be lost in you.

When nothing exist but that nothiingness which is you.

I am not a channeler.

My soul, tell the world, announce it to the world.

I am not a channeler.

I do not want to be anything but in God.

To sink into my God.

To be one with my God.

Seeking that oblivion where I am one with my God.

Everything else vex my soul.

I do not want this or that.

I do not desire this or that.

All that is vexation to my soul.

I just want to sink into God.

To sink deep deep into God.

To lose myself completely in God.

To be one with God.

I will continue to write and share,

On this longing, yearning for God.

It is my song to the world.

The contribution of my soul to the world.

Winners losers

  There is a mindset so hell bent on being winners,

They cannot admit they are wrong.

If they admit they are wrong, then in their minds, they lose.

Hence they would stick to their guns and never admit they are wrong.

Yet the noblest of minds, the biggest of minds,

are those who are able to admit they are wrong.

I gauge greatness, genuineness of spiritual teachers on that.

The ability to admit it when one is wrong.

Musings on Consciousness

Max Planck said, Consciousness is the base and gives rise to matter.

He believes consciousness to be the primal Source.

Hence one cannot go behind consciousness.

And not the other way around,

That mind does not give rise to consciousness.

This brings to my mind what a psychic medium told me.

"God is because I am. If there is no me, there would not be a god."

She just knew that from a young age hence it is gospel truth for her.

I responded, "That thought would never occur to me.

For me, God is therefore I am."

I have been watching videos on all this.

It is fascinating the way physicists go round and round the topic.

They have to put it in equations, they have to prove it.

I do not have to, I simply believe.

At the same time, it is fascinating watching them come to the conclusion,

There is a Source beyond comprehension of Science.

Quantum physics attest to that.

I could tell them that long ago from mysticism.

What do mysticism and metaphysics have in common?

They explore the Universe. 

God is the Universe.

We do not use the name God these days, another psychic medium told me.

Yes, but I do.

I revise my perception of him from the King sitting on a throne in heaven,

to the pure consciousness I experience him as.

God as in the Supreme Being, the Great Spirit, the Infinite Creator, Source.

By whatever name we choose to call him.

I knew him as God and God he is to me.

God, consciousness

 See God as the base, the consciousness from which we all came from.

When God is this energy, this immense consciousness.

What is he?

He is not what we like to imagine him to be.

A being like us.

No, he is energy, he is consciousness.

When I first learned that, did it remove him from me?

No, because when I first experience him, I experienced him as energy.

I knew he is energy.

How am I experiencing him these days?

It is akin to being plugged into an energy.

I would feel him strongly at my crown chakra.

A force that invades me, takes me over.

Lull me into trance states and keep me occupied with his energy.

Sometimes it is euphoric.

Sometimes it is just this intense feeling of being taken over by a force.

It clears my mind, everything within me.

And dropped me deep into a cistern of no depths or boundaries.

Into an immense space, void of substance and time.

One gets lost in this immensity.

No longer matter and body but pure consciousness.

One with the primordal Consciousness one comes from.

Power of Love

I was reading about Thich Nhat Hanh one day.

And wondered how he could not hate those who caused so much suffering in his land, Tibet.

A few months ago, I understood.

When a soul reaches a certain level of spirituality,

and the spirit is transformed, there is no hate.

In fact, the soul is incapable of feeling hate.

And actually find it hard understanding what hate is.

Anger it can better understand, it can get triggered into anger,

As Jesus did at the temple.

But hate becomes a foreign nature to him or her.

My spirit team, why is that?

Hate is the opposite polarity to love.

When a soul reaches that level of spirituality.

It has grown further into his or her real Divine nature of Love and Light.

Love and light drove out the hate.

Hate cannot coexist with Love.

It is in direct contrast, directly contrary to Love.

When Love fills the heart of a person, there is no room for hate.

It is as simple as that.

Arriving at the Divine

When you have arrived at the Divine.

You do not want to do anything.

You just want to lay down and rest in God.

Everything becomes a chore and a burden.

Talking becomes burdensome.

Thinking becomes work.

Everything has paled into the sunset.

In your soul is only the dawn of the Divine.

The Divine, silencing everything in you.

God is. The Universe is. Life is. You just are.

Everything lost in this Oneness of being.

Into this huge immensity of Oneness.

Our being knows what to do.

What is this inner knowing of our being?

From whence does it stem?

My deeper self, my higher self, my eternal self?

Whatever it is, it knows.

Take meditation, simply apply yourself to it.

Set time apart for it, create a space for it.

And daily, engage in it.

You do not have to learn how to do it.

You simply do it, emptying your mind, 

Concentrating on your breathing as your mind increasingly cleared.

And you will find yourself meditating.

All it takes is time and dedicated application to it.

I arrived at trance meditation and learned how to meditate all by myself.

Those days I did not have the benefit of youtube videos to show me how to meditate.

Or breathing.

I was taught ujjayi breathing.

It was too complicated for me.

One day, as I moved deeper into meditation,

I found my breath slowing and I engaged in ujjayi breathing.

Now I found as I concentrate on breathing, just regular breathing.

No techniques or fuss, my breathing settles into a pattern,

Smooth and natural, in a rhythmic pattern, developed all on its own,

Through dedicated application to the practice.

Recently, it has been food I consumed.

I knew I had to cut down on my coffee intake and stalled on accomplishing that.

When I have to do it, spirit will let me know. They always do.

They did. One day, I experienced an acute acidic stomach drinking coffee.

On receiving the message, I cut down on my intake.

And food. 

Recently, my body started telling me it likes clean fresh food as in a lot of fresh fruits and vegetables and no junk food.

When I was engaged in youtube Livestreams and the like,

I often fed on carbohydrates, mostly noodles.

It was fast, easy and convenient.

Then came the stroke of my left eye and I learned a lesson about eating healthy.

Still, I resisted till my body tells me what it likes.

And I find myself eating more healthy.

I believe the same goes for my dog Mari,

After a few months of eating the chicken from Costco,

One day, she decided she was going to eat her dog food only.

And stopped eating those chicken.

Animals know from instinct what is good for them.

We, humans, are subjected to so many processed and convenient foods

that we lose sight of that.

Be still and know that I am God.

When we quiet the mind.

We develop the spirit of knowing.

We just know from our deeper mind, higher mind, eternal self or spirit team.

Whatever the source, surrender to the spirit makes sense to me today.

Surrender to our spirit self, to our Divine self, to God, to Infinity.